Wednesday, November 28, 2018

Some words to tune my weather veins

"All over the world the life of rocks, ice, mountains, snow, oceans, islands, albatross, sooty gulls, whales, crabs, limpets, and guanaco once flowed up into the bodies of the people who lived in small hunting groups and villages, and out came killer-whale prayers, condor chants, crab feasts, and guanaco songs. Life went where there was food. Food occurred in places of great beauty, and the act of living directly fueled people’s movements, thoughts, and lives. Everything spoke. Everything made a sound -- birds, ghosts, animals, oceans, bogs, rocks, humans, trees, flowers, and rivers -- and when they passed each other a third sound occurred. That’s why weather, mountains, and each passing season were so noisy. Song and dance, sex and gratitude, were the season-sensitive ceremonies linking the human psyche to the larger, wild, weather-ridden world....

"When did we begin thinking that weather was something to be rescued from?"

"Love life first, then march through the gates of each season; go inside nature and develop the discipline to stop destructive behavior; learn tenderness toward experience, then make decisions based on creating biological wealth that includes all people, animals, cultures, currencies, languages, and the living things as yet undiscovered; listen to the truth the land will tell you; act accordingly."

Beautiful OTTER

Continuing with yesterday's post about the long story, long where I asked, "Do you find yourself with your people, and has Creator given you clues to find them? I heard from a long time friend. She wrote in answer to the question " ... my friend of young motherhood is here, you know her."  

We were friends first when both were young mothers and now we live on the same Island, one of us at the northwest shore the other on a southwest facing prairie. It is winter on this Island and that friend and her mate on the northwest shore are encasing her childhood dreams like Oyster secreting hard luster into a pearl. 

Once while Pete and I visited these friends on their northwest shore I heard stories of the inconvenience of Otter moving into the homes of humans. Along the shore the slippery swift swimmer could create ... inconvenience? I thought of that story as I listened and watched OTTER come to life on paper from pencil, pine soot, water and brush.

Click on the word OTTER, if you are needing the beauty of art, or a reminder of OTTER, or clues of magic.


Names of Otter Poster by Jackie Morris.


Beautiful. Art. Jackie Morris.

Rain spatters off roof edges while Mahina, the Moon, travels visible to others on our Planet home. We Hawaiian call these moon phases over the next three days and nights the 'Ole Moon -- a pause time, a refresh time, calling on calm and enjoying the beauty of wherever. 

'Ole Moon exhale for me.
I follow.

Aloha,
Moki


Monday, November 26, 2018

Wherever you go ...

It's early Monday morning, but I climbed into bed before Bruddah Ace ended his beautiful Da Coconut Wireless tribute to Cyril Pahinui. The Waimanalo-born Hawaiian slack key artist and beloved musician passed away of cancer a week ago at the age of 68. The music was old style, nahenahe sweet, just our kind of style and though I love the music, sometimes the memories that swarm from between the melodies are just too much for me to manage in large doses.

I've had several hours sleep. Last night's soup (veggie chowder with salmon) is warming on the burner. I've done my morning writing meditation and been to my favorite online sites already. The morning is well on the way.

A beautiful new to me print, Storyteller, drawn and watercolored by Rima Staines leans against the old flannel curtain. The deep colors and etched faces of a band of enchanted folk are listening to the storyteller who speaks in circles of ancient symbols. I note the details, as is so much of what Rima does with her work ... tucked in the details in full view ... leaving interpretation up to the receivers. I see the tattoo that marks the storyteller's chin; black marks that follow the curve of her timeless face, and recognize the repetition designs Maori-like markings curling above her head like a helmet. Tatau, tattoo. Rima is a woman of Devon in England's far southern elements, but her name and some of her story includes New Zealand, Aotearoa. I feel a kinship as a woman of the Pacific I am.

Storyteller by Rima Staines

The new print is a birthday present sent to me by my friend Joan. We have been friends for what three decades now? Sometime between my lifetime as nearly-divorced and newly-partnered we met and lunched on stacks of nachos and told our stories. The mythic times were still in-the-making when we first met. The Wherever you go-ness of our journeys still early in the simmering. Sending me the first pieces Rima Staines's art when Pete and I were building Vardo for Two was a knot, a reconnection -- a source of potential -- in my thread, a continuing journey that had no surety or guarantees. More was to come, but was I willing to live the future wildly?

Rima Staines would introduce me to the whirl of travelers, present-day wanderers building a home on wheels, carrying stories and feeding the wild god with their dreaming. An old friend watched my life unraveling and from the edges she offered me art as medicine: "Don't spit in the eyes of the Old Ones," she'd tell me more than once when I refuse to see the Universe's pictographs. "Write!"

To celebrate the gift, I write. I write my Friends, the Trees, the Birds, the Sounds, the Unlikely encounters into stories. I have written that gift-giving friend into the magic and medicine of stories to feed me when my faith faltered. As I take the slow and necessary steps to gather a collection of stories written when Pete and I were new to each other but so close to the old roots and ghosts of my childhood, I need to remember to live the myth. The medicine of story is in the wild edges where sense seems no sense and adapting to a sick society no measure of health (Kristamurti).

This is a post of gratitude and one to encourage belief in an unfolding path. Returning to Terri Windling's post "Trailing Story" and quotes from Martin Shaw:

"You know what it is: you have to let a story have its way with you. You can’t tell the story what it is. You learn to sit in the radiance of it until something comes from the story that disturbs you or bugs you or makes you happy, until you have to do something with it. "
Story is first. You have to be in the presence of the story, which I regard as a living being: it’s a wild animal; it’s got tusks, udders; it’s got a tail; it doesn’t behave; half the time you want it to be there it’s disappeared, it’s shuffled off somewhere else. Stories should be filled with so much consequence and danger, they won’t behave for your polemic."
When I was sitting on the floor writing my first blog posts in White Center, this bit of art arrived to open a vein in my frightened heart. Funny creature warming big feet by an open fire while telling stories to trees. Ha!?



Telling stories to trees by Rima Staines

 Looking over my shoulder, just a little, to those months spent sleeping on the floor of the White Center Kitchenette, building a home with no blueprint in a makeshift basement space ... the comforts of that present were often lost. If we didn't take time to appreciate where we were, I doubt we would have made it to our present Wherever.

Enjoying a late summer Sunday at the Farmers' Market, 2018
Astrologically Elsa P. sent her newsletter today and said this is a day in a week of much support. In an older post of reassurance Elsa entitled her musings, "Wherever You Go ... Your People Are There." It's a quirky and optimistic twist to "Wherever you go, you'll be there" or something similar. I like the story Elsa told. And, really love the heck out of the timing. That post was written in May, 2008 at about the same time Pete and I showed up in a basement kitchenette wondering what our story would do with us.

The long story is long. Do you find yourself with your people, and has Creator given you clues to find them?

Saturday, November 24, 2018

Folding in potential, making chicken veggie soup


The moon is just past full and high in the sky as she moves into the west. A pot of early morning chicken and vegetable soup is perculating on the burner. It's a small but significant change to be cooking inside the shelter of the Tilth's kitchen. The loud old fan sucks on the steam from the blue enamel pot; smells escape its grasp and I can taste the melding of herbs, onions, and chicken legs. An evolving picture of how to share space and live by revolutionary definitions is not a quick fix. I suppose it's helpful that I love to cook and don't usually use a recipe. 

The big planets Neptune and Jupiter are offering up some joyful potential as they create a vaning, but promising future. Satori puts it this way:

"We no longer have that trine (the joyful potential); but what we do have is the ability to fold the essence of that supportive energy into our daily lives as we go forward and plot a brand new cycle of prosperity and joyous aspiration.
 A larger goal benefits once again from the connection that strengthens from having gone inside and melded with the source of our creativity."
Rains have come to the Pacific Northwest the ground is soaking in the wetness and once again I am grateful for rubber boots and the big red storm coat that makes it comfortable to be where I am. The fullness of living is rarely perfect and more often lumpy or bumpy. A message from a dear friend from California, where huge fires have wiped out homes and sent people into a spin of unexpected loss and pain raises the sadness quota. People are living in parking lots with no idea how or where to go from there. We have been there. The small comforts of dry feet and a warm coat are substantial when it comes right down to it.

We've been living this small and shareable life for ten years, and know what it feels like to live in parking lots. With the sound of the kitchen fan creating a constant hum and this hand-me-down laptop also working overtime to keep at her work, the reality of folding in the essence of supportive energy from sources greater than oneself seems primary.

When we lived in beach park parking lots at night alone and filled with uncertainty, it was the Moon, Mahina, rising out of the Makapu'u horizon that gave us hope for something. A new next, but there was no recipe for it. Not yet. There were many, many more times to come and we would need to go deep inside ourselves to find the way.

Astrology is a big picture kind of support and guidance from heavenly bodies is both metaphoric or symbolic while also giving a way through the daily challenges. For me, the astrological ingredients lift me out of hot water and into creative storytelling where I put myself and my situation into a soup I'd love to savor.

Yum ... the chicken soup is delicious, very hot and flavorful. Makes me think of this bit of soup that wrote itself into my life one winter when we lived in the woods.

"I was glad my kitchen included the large saimin bowls I'd found, and kept since Max and No'e were children. The sturdy restaurant ware held up with all the packing and unpacking of a lifetime with only minor chips. Like wrinkles I could account for every one of the nicks; a hasty washing, an angry morning of cold cereal and hot words. There were six bowls in all, I found two with no old wounds and set them on the drainboard. The egg noodles were nearly ready, just a second cup of cold water to cool them. I covered the old porcelain pot and dug in the frig for green onions.
"Can I help?" Max asked.
"Sure." I washed the tender onions and handed them to Max, noticing his incredibly large hands and thick fingernails. Not for the first time. He found a knife in the crockery pot where I stuck the cutlery and felt the edge.
"The sharpening stone," I pointed to the drawer. With long sure strokes Max honed an edge to that knife and all the others in the pot.
"Thank you," I kissed his cheek, and then added, "I have scissors that need it, too!"
"Don't do scissors." We laughed and Max finished trimming and chopping a cup of green onions in time to sprinkle over the now-drained noodles.
I served up a portion of noodles and green onions into our bowls, then ladled chunks of chicken, carrots, celery, and rosemary sprigs over the top. The aroma and the color of the stew warmed us and hid the rich noodles until we dug into them with chopsticks. Neither of us added additional seasoning though I had roasted sesame seed oil and a batch of freshly mixed Coleman's mustard. Max said a prayer of thanks, simple and quick. We ate mostly in appreciate silence, slurping the succulent stew until the last noodle slid slowly past our lips.
Continue to read here ... 
I've had my fill of a large bowl (and a bit more) of breakfast chicken soup with sweet potatoes, celery, onions chard and broccoli. A crisp pear tops my morning meal. The protein and vegetable start to my day is part of the Abascal Way that I try one day at a time to fold into my daily life. I need the simple yet different rules for this eating plan to calm the inflammation in me.  I've followed this eating plan very well for weeks, and then slide off into old habits and eating foods that make it difficult for my body to function well. Then, I get back on the way, and start today with a meal of protein and vegetables in the right proportions (no more than 50 percent protein and no starch or grains).

There's just enough structure to keep me in a possible to do discipline and I feel better when I eat this way. That helps alot, and this life we live benefits from as much 'feel better' times as possible. This story Pete and I are living seems to be one without a floor plan. The blueprint is drawn in pencil or in the imagination, and to ask for shareable spaces -- a kitchen, bathroom and a place to plug into the grid? Well, that takes a lot of negotiating without scaring our potential community away.

Our second winter here in this Shareable life on the Prairie Front is a story still unfolding. Are we meant to stay where we are? Or is there somewhere else this story wants to add? Terri Windling shared a post about finding story and I include a quote from mythographer and storyteller Martin Shaw here:
"First thing we gotta do is trail the stories not trap them," Martin answers. "If you trap a story, you’ve put it in a little allegorical cage where you pretend you know what it means. The moment you think you know what the story means from beginning to end, it’s lost its nutrition, it’s lost its protein, it’s lost its danger."

On this early morning in late November while the chicken meat and veggies meld in me in fine proportions, I send up a prayer to my Ancestors and Neptune and Jupiter asking for guidance in our story.

Creators of Cosmic Soup

I show up
With my pots and pans
Help me
With the seasoning


What's your soup like where you are?








  

Tuesday, November 20, 2018

The changing landscape

 How quickly the seasons change from green, fully leafed and potent with fruit
 to a change in color and vibrancy as the sun loosens his grip on our tilted and moving planet.
 Leaves fall
 Bugs have had their fill, making inroads into our once impenetrable hides
 We lose our hair, and still ...
 we are graceful in our agedness.
 Inside the settled structure of kitchen we share as volunteers-in-residence here on the Prairie Front, this is the season for us to warm the space up. Pete has begun ...

 Soon these lengths of old curtains will hang 'round the cupboards to keep the cold air from chilling our old bones and hides.
And to remind us that the Wild is alive even with the changes that cause us to drop to our knees a spot of gold turns her face to the sun and I am kissed with Faith by the Heart of the Lion.

Thanksgiving Day approaches and we are grateful for this life. Despite the challenges that sometime leave me daunted and dampened in spirit, we muddle through and find reasons to celebrate. We send you greetings from this place where we are, and thank you for your part in our changing landscape.

We Raise our Hands to You!!












Sunday, November 18, 2018

Celebration, Tradition, and Inter-generational Connection

Pete and I were with people of the South Whidbey Tilth last Thursday evening. There was a monthly meeting to attend, a potluck of good food to share and then there were reasons for celebrating.

I wrote a story about two women of Whidbey who set off for an occasion. The entire story is just here and the photos that follow are what happened when the story was told. Hover over each photo for a bit of narrative. That story begins this way ... 


" This fall two women of Whidbey set off for an occasion that would open a window to Tradition that was unexpected, unpredictable and in mythic tradition, the perfectly-timed moment to build a very meaningful future. One of the women is tall, the other woman small. The event was a grand celebration -- a gala, held on the land of the Tulalip Tribes in the huge ballroom of the Casino at Quil Ceda Village, and as that fall evening unfolded, the Tradition of gratitude and generosity would wrap these Whidbey women in the spirit of "being fed..." 

First, we celebrated Angie Hart.
 

Angie said as she watched four Killer Whales,  "I wondered what I was going to learn from it?"
And so do we all wonder what can be learned from the medicine and myth of Killer Whales feeding us.

"Oh how strange and unpredictable is the space between what is known, or suspects, and the place where something new (while being very, very old) awaits those who come to be fed."


E Ola Angie. To your good life, and to the strange and unpredictable potential to come as the community of the South Whidbey Tilth builds on the tradition of generosity, gifting and inter-generational connection.

~0~

Before we left that evening, our friends sang me a Happy Birthday song. My 71st year was about to  begin.


And to celebrate my new year ...

 Someone sweet, named Pete, built me a totem of toys and tucked in a new pair of cozy blue gloves.
 Another someone asked me, "What do you need?" And with a little thought I answered, "How about new knives?" I'm always choppin' and dicing something to eat. And there is the big, very sharp chef's knife that arrived in the mail.
 The birthday moved at a very fine pace, and Pete found just the right shoe for a walk on the beach along the shore at Mutiny Bay.
 My Dikka hat from this angle makes me laugh!! Dikka, I still wear your gift and love it, love it, love it!
 Whidbey is an island of sand. To walk it and to see it's history in layers makes me think of an hour glass ... time, how much is there and where do we go with it?

Thank you friends and family for your happy birthday wishes and gifts. If you're nearby come play a game of Go Fish with us, or fold an origami crane (I need to be reminded how).

Mahalo nui Ke Akua, what a fiesta.



 

Wednesday, November 14, 2018

We build a spirit of being fed

This fall two women of Whidbey set off for an occasion that would open a window to Tradition that was unexpected, unpredictable and in mythic tradition, the perfectly timed moment to build a very meaningful future. One of the women is tall, the other woman small. The event was a grand celebration -- a gala, held on the land of the Tulalip Tribes in the huge ballroom of the Casino at Quil Ceda Village, and as that fall evening unfolded, the Tradition of gratitude and generosity would wrap these Whidbey women in the spirit of "being fed."
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Oh how strange and unpredictable is the space between what is known, or suspected, and the place where something new (while being very, very old) awaits those who come to be fed. I have heard the story from the Small Woman and seen the pictures of what it was like to enter the huge ballroom after walking past the gaming tables. More and different sorts of stimulation than our two women of Whidbey are used to. But, it makes no nevermind, the windows of myth hinge and swing in all directions at once. And the Wind would have his way with those women of Whidbey.

Generosity and gift-giving tampered with the preconceived notions about "Grants". And then, Cedar carved in the shape of the Killer Whale crossed between the people of Tulalip and the many, many community who came to "be fed," including the Tall one and Small one from Whidbey.  

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A story behind the art of cedar carved by Tulalip artist Tony Hatch told of myth ... the story that is truth and more. This story lesson reminds the people of Tulalip that they know what it was and is like to be hungry. And to be in a place and a state where hunger is replaced with abundance, the Tulalip Tribes Raise their Hands to remember those who fed the whole of the community beyond their tribal lands.

All who came to the celebration had received grants for the good work they provide. Our two Women of Whidbey were being recognized for their parts in "Grow Whidbey Apprenticeship Program." The South Whidbey apprentice never flew through the windows of opportunity this year on the Prairie Front ... and that is where our story sniffs for something more upon which to be 'fed on.'

To be sure you are still listening, and hearing the spirit of this winding tale, can I get an E Ho Mai?

Hmmm. Good.

A beautiful laser cut cedar Killer Whale necklace returned with each of the two women of Whidbey. The small woman, showed the gifts to another small woman who has in her bones and blood the memory of ritual and traditions. Together they came to sit on wooden chairs one day to discuss and consider the future of that gift, and the potential it has to build a Tradition that grows meaningfully from this place people of Tulalip would call "the Prairie Front" [In Lushootseed] 
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Not so very long ago the community of South Whidbey Tilth welcomed their first intern . Her name was Angie Hart. The small story about Angie Hart is: "She fed us very, very well." What she offered we might call the spirit of generosity, curiosity and youthful enthusiasm that grew as she committed to being more involved. 

As we gather to celebrate Angie's new adventure south to North Carolina, we send her off with the gift of the Killer Whale Necklace. We Raise Our Hands to her, and, wish her, Ben and Maria the very best. 

Over the winter, that gift takes on the energy of affection, respect and responsibility of a hiapo, the first born. The older sister. For a time, the gift lives with Angie, until it is time for the South Whidbey Tilth to welcome a new Intern-Apprentice in 2019. Then we will ask Angie to send the Killer Whale back to the Prairie Front so it can feed us, again.

The Tradition that builds on the Raising Hands Tradition of the Tulalip Tribes lights a fire here. Winter is a good time to make plans for the coming year. We warm ourselves around the warmth of tradition, have plans for gathering to consider how best to feed this land and this community.

A gift multiples in its worth when it flows. The story has been told, and with it Cedar and the Killer Whale travel, flowing on the journey of reciprocity.

E Ola Angie. To your good life!

Do we agree this is a tradition to build the spirit of being fed?
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  ... He puko'a kani 'aina. A coral reef that grows into an island. A person beginning in a small way gains steadily until she becomes firmly established.
"We cross borders without regard, ignorant or arrogant of the protocol native to the transitional spaces that take us from this place to that place. Traditions remembered and practiced would maintain and pass along the right things to do, at the right time, and in the right frame of mind. Have we all become wanderers with passports un-stamped with the memory of teachings from the Ancestors and Nature? There are rituals to remember and common magic to induce respect for the beings and places that share this planet." 

Tuesday, November 6, 2018

The long story, long

“The Church says: the body is a sin.
Science says: the body is a machine.
Advertising says: The body is a business.
The Body says: I am a fiesta.”

― Eduardo Galeano, Walking Words
I'm reading an incredibly turn-me-inside-out book by Lewis Hyde the author of The Gift. The book is called Trickster Makes This World.
"Tricksters are usually thought of as boundary crossers, characters who find the limits and violate them, or keep them lively. Lewis Hyde reimagines this function, saying that tricksters are "joint-workers." They seek out the joints of this world--sometimes to disrupt them, sometimes to move them, and sometimes just to keep them limber.
Tricksters sometimes attack the joints of creation, and sometimes simply oil the joints with humor, keeping them flexible. All those who do so are artists in the most ancient sense, and their creations, no matter how unsettling, are the works of art that make this world what it is."
On any night of the week one of them Trickersters along with their relations are close. Coyote loves the land around us. Earlier in the year we had conversations with our neighbor, the Sheep Lady, about the many losses of young sheep because Coyote is hunger. Coyote is always hunger.

I have a pair of sterling and copper earrings of Coyote howling at the moon. I asked for these ornaments one birthday or Christmas when I was feeling particularly rebellious; wanting to raise the feel of a howl in my winter-worn reality. Wet and dark weather wears on me. But Coyote and his kin howl during all kinds of winter weather. I listened to them as I checked on my breakfast simmering on the burner outside.

The small iron table that sits between our parked Subaru and the steps to the wagon's front porch is laden with food on the large painted china serving dish that belonged to my Aunty Lily. A slice of coconut cream pie for Ma; a bear claw pastry to substitute for the coffee cake Pete's mom Rose would enjoy; a scone made with whole wheat flour for Dean Pete's dad; a serving of Chicken Lo Mein for Uncle Billy; a large can of Miller High Life the champagne of bottled beer for Daddy and David and Cousin Buff ( who didn't drink for many years but did when times were young in Kuliouou); and a cup of smokes for Mary Ann, Ma, Dad, and David the smokers in the family. Food for the Dead.

When we were kids Daddy would tell us stories about the food left on the graves for New Year  where he grew up in Waimanalo, or was it Kaneohe? Only the best of foods were left out, and it was these times when his too-often hungry belly was full. He was a rascal, a kolohe kid then but if I remember the stories, he never took it all (the food). His genes -- the rascal and the generous one with very little to give, but who did anyway-- have moved through. I always knew that about my brother, but now? Now I recognize how those traits have tricked me all these decades stored in my joints they are turning finally slipping the traps that have looked so seriously at life. Finally, I see there is a wisp of smoke, a sly cloud masquerading in me and finally I see what Hyde is writing about when he reminds me, "The Gods (the dead) depend on humans to feed them", to live on.

Hyde continues, "The classical trickster figures are most at home on the road or at the twilight edge of town. They are the consummate boundary-crossers, slipping through keyholes, breaching walls, subverting defense systems. Always out to satisfy their inordinate appetites, lying, cheating, and stealing, tricksters are a great bother to have around, but paradoxically they are also indispensable heroes of culture." Reading Trickster acts like Yellow Dock on my digestive system when I have eaten something that looked good but goes through rough. Older brother and sister, Medicine plant, rearranges my want.

For several nights now when the sounds of wheels on asphalt are silent, and the quiet of the land is only broken by Coyote, I've been watching and listening to stories told by very, very successful Hawaii men two of them grew up in the same valley that grew my brother David and me. Each of these interviews with another Kuliouou kid made good have raised questions in me; and in the process I find the answers that are missing. In those interviews on Long Story Short, Trickster has greased the screws in my joints and asks, "Where is the long story, long?"

Pete and I are planning a winter project that will answer the question, "Where is the long story, long?" With the nights long and days short there ought to be enough time to sort through the years of writing I did when we lived at 319 Dalene Way in Kuliouou Valley. Those columns include many stories about life, and the people of Kuliouou. My cousin "Buff" (Jacob Lau) lived just up the valley from my family home on Dalene Way. Earlier today I read his obituary online. Cousin Buff passed away earlier this year at 89. Oh my. Tears of grief, and memories of a time and a man who was kindness in so many forms of the word flooded my sight.

In his memory, and to regale the belief that the long story of a person's life is tricky, and a valley such as Kuliouou which means "lumpy knee"in Hawaiian ought to include more than just the ones of the kids who made good as in highly visible, publically successful, and valued for his net worth. No discredit to the Tommy Kaulukukuis and the Walter Dods, but there are other stories of Kuliouou that make such a difference to me.


The book I will write, Kuliouou, the long story, long will include this story, "Sound of Pick-up-Sticks Was Soft, A Reminder of Gentler Days" originally published in my column Makua O'o in Hawai'i Island Journal, October 1-15, 2000.

"I've been whistling a lot. A pair of beautiful songbirds lives in the valley and they whistle a trill-a-li-la-li song that's hard to imitate. Most days the friendly long-tailed whistler dressed in feathers like tux-and-tails calls across my back yard, and I answer. When he answers me, I feel affirmed. The whistling between us creates a gentle feel to my day. Maybe it's just that sometimes words are too righteous, and divide me from the rest of life. Whistling, on the other hand, is a collection of tones and the sounds connect me .. with what? Everything.
A small pottery vase with a curved bamboo handle sits in my kitchen. Sometimes I move it off the shelf in the corner, and bring it to the table when the long smooth sticks can be reached easily. Pete's eating tools of choice are chopsticks so it makes sense to keep them close-by. But  have been thinking about the simple way in which a slightly different fistful of sticks used to keep me entertained for long stretches day after day.
When I started to remember how a can of Pick-Up-Sticks entranced me I searched for them. The ones I found were made of plastic instead of wood and no longer came packaged in the hard cardboard tube with a metal cap on top. The sticks were thinner and not as tall as I remembered them. But more disappointing that that was the absence of the sound that came from my childhood game.
Clumped together in a fist, the sticks could be held tight or lose. When you opened the hand it was the sound that signaled the start of the game. it was the stargate, the passage, between afternoon-time 1959 and playing anywhere at any time.
It's funny how the games i loved as a child were often ones with flexible rules. I know there were rules about how to and which one to pick up. I know there was a rule about getting more points when you picked up one color ... was it purple? And, I think I remember you had to pick up the black one last.
One primary rule stuck: pick up the sticks without moving the others. Otherwise, most of the rules were bent, changed or ignored when I played with some friends and maintained, adhered to and challenged with others. How little I have changed in the decades since those early years.
My preference for games is still to play with few rules. I never cultivated the discipline for the counting-watching and awareness of card games. In short stints I have played Cribbage and Hearts, but if asked tomorrow, I would be without memory of the rules let along the finesse to play well.
The year is passing quickly. Like sticks dropping onto a cool linoleum floor, I hear the movement of time. I see time stacking up and slipping down into a collection of moments, years decades. The rules change all the time. My companions and challengers come and go. Still one remains constant. Sometime ... tomorrow, next year, 20, 30 years tomorrow my stick will be picked up and then who will notice whether the other sticks moved, too?
In the morning light when Kuliouou is in half-tones and the air still cool, I spot a long-time neighbor raking her yard and picking at the dried-up croton leaves.
"Hello," I call across her cement block wall. Her greeting is always friendly, though my walks to her side of the valley have become less regular. She squints searching for the name to match my face. I help her, because I remember she won't ... remember who i am. "Yes, of course Calizar. You look good!" She says, "Younger since I last saw you."
That makes me chuckle and the two-comment exchange is plenty to start chewing that fat.
Mrs. L. remembers my mother. They would be nearly the same age if Ma were still alive. "She was a lot of fun, your mother. I miss her. That man," she points to the hedge just beyond her croton hedge cut far to low by her son who is no-yard-man-by-her-definition, "I miss him, too. He just died last year. Nice man."
We shared a few minutes of the day, and laughed at the reality of forgetfulness. "I have to ask my daughter to sign this thing for me. Why? Because I cannot remember my own name." In a quarter of a morning's hour, one tiny Chinese woman remembers that my mother was a lot of fun, recalls a long ago tragedy we shared, and tells me her grandchildren don't like it when she confuses their names. I wondered if she knew my mother whistled while she cooked, and playing music-by-ear on a termite-riddle stand-up piano.
Our small-time, friendly neighborhood -kind-of-chat was familiar, gentle words, lots of laughs, remembering, forgetting and raking up fallen leaves. Like the sound of Pick-up-Sticks falling, I listen with the ears of that small child whose heart opened up with those gentle sounds. Listen, can you hear them?"
~o~

Thank you, mahalo nui to all those gentle and tricky sound makers of Kuliouou. And to you, my Believing Mirrors, friends who value my art, and keep me at the keyboard sniffing for words, I ask for your prayers: "Keep me in your prayers each day, as the winter sets in, helping me to gather those stories and pili them into a book that can be passed like genes, or mist in an island valley. I may reach across the email channels or leave a message on your cellphone to check in when I begin another day of assembling this long story, long." Knowing you are there can make this journey much less lonely.

Are you with me? Let us dance and move our joints as our bodies say in our ways: "We are a fiesta."